I was privileged enough to be one of the honorary co-chairs for the Pink In The Rink campaign with the Canadian Cancer Society and Peterborough Petes to raise awareness and money to help aid in the fight against Women's Health. With this came the responsibility of press and media. Something that made me nervous but I was very excited to do. One of my press appearances was on a radio show, and it was at 8:00 in the morning. Anyone who knows me knows I'm not a morning person, so this was going to be a challenge but this cause was near and dear to my heart and I would not let it down. Luckily it was a radio appearance so I didn't have to doll up and could pretty much wear my pajamas. I was decked out in lulu leggings, uggs, a blue baseball cap, my glasses and a black zip up hoodie. Not something you plan on meeting someone in. I maybe had a little mascara on, because I have blonde eyelashes and look like I have none with out. My hair was in a pony tail and I clutched my Tim Hortons 1/2 Coffee 1/2 Hot chocolate for dear life as I begged for some mental clarity to not mess this up. I arrived a little early (I know... weird... especially for me) and was finally let inside. I went up to the studios and walked into the one on the right. There was a guy and a girl and it was very cool, exactly what you picture a radio station to look like. He had these eyes, that pierced right through me, and I was instantly smiling, I didnt care that I was in 8am mode. He made me feel so comfortable and told me to put my stuff in the corner and hang out, because I wasn't scheduled to be on the air for about a half an hour. I sat and watched as he did his thing and was in awe of how exciting it was. I also had another appearance on the sister station two steps away, so he walked me over to do that first. After that I went back and did the show with him and the GM of the Pete's. The interview felt like it was just him and I. He made me smile, he said things that made me feel like he completely understood, and I was immediately intrigued. I tried to keep it professional because I was there on very serious matters but something inside me was very curious. A feeling I couldn't remember the last time I felt.
I left with a jump in my step and a smile bigger than normal. I had no idea what was happening but I liked it. We have a mutual friend at the radio station and so I got his information to email B for the clip of our interview. His voice, I didn't notice it at the station, but I got warm and fuzzy when I heard it again. Ugh I was being a total girl. We flirted a little through email and that was basically that. He was trying to remain professional too.
I had a PSA to record at the station and originally missed it because of my flight delay back in Philly. My dad being the gem he is, knew about my crush and had it rescheduled so that I could go into the studio to do it. I recorded the PSA for the event and E, who helped me record it, and I became instant friends. We had B, (my crush) take a pic of us, and I was so excited to say hi. He asked if I wanted to come in and do another interview right before the event and I immediately jumped at the chance for more time with him. I couldn't explain it, he was someone I wanted to get to know. He's well known, but I had never heard of him. He's tall and smart and funny and sincere, and I just can only describe the feeling as intense curiosity as to who this person was and why they were drawing me in hook, line and sinker.
The time came for me to do my interview with him and I woke up that morning feeling MISERABLE. I facebook messaged him because we were yet to be text buddies. I apologized and asked if we could move it to the next day. He was so gracious and understanding although he had already promoted it for the day and we were scheduled for the next morning. (He later told me that he would never have done that for anyone else ::HUGE SMILE::)
The next morning while I was getting ready, because I may have put a little more effort in this time, we were facebook chatting. I put on the radio to listen to his show while I got ready and for the second or third time the song "Timber" by Kesha and PitBull was the first song I heard. He had also sent me a message which put a little hop in my step and so obviously I responded:
Now the radio dj's usually pick their line up ahead of time at the beginning of their show. (I know this now) So when the next song was Imagine Dragons "Demons" I lit up like a freaking christmas tree. "Did you do that on purpose"... I asked later, to which I got a "Maybe". It was on, like freaking Donkey Kong!
I arrived and did a quick interview with their sister station and then got to head back over to him. His co-host was out sick that day and so it was just the two of us. I was unusually giggly (Who was this person I had become and why) and we had a great interview. He told me I could stay a little while and hang out and so I did.
Towards the end of hanging out in the studio, I decided to stop being shy and put it out there. I didn't have anything to lose.
"Hey so are you going to be at the event tomorrow night?"To which he replied
"Umm Yea I'll probably stop by"-I later learned he had no intention of going, but I may have persuaded him. #ForTheWin
"Ok cool, well you should text me when you're there and we can grab a drink or something."I knew he didn't have my number and was hoping I would get the exact response I got...
"I actually don't think I have your number"PERFECT! Exactly how I wanted it to go down.
"Here well, let me give it to you! Oh I don't know how to work your phone, I apologize, My name is in all caps, I promise I'm not yelling at you!"I may have been a little nervous. He responded with
"hahah no worries, it makes you stand out"and that was how I got my nickname All Caps.
Later that morning I got a text...
The next night, was the event. I made time to see him. He was the only person I made time to sit down and actually have a drink with and I was nervous but it was fabulous! I had so many people I wanted to see, and so many people I did see... but the 10 minutes I got to spend with him, made my night. I told him to come to the after party and although there were complications with that, he came. I don't think I paid attention to anyone else that night, we said our good byes and little did I realize this was the beginning of something incredible. We would be attached at the hip.
You don't think anyone will want to be with you after you've been through an ordeal, or multiple for that matter like I have. I'm a liability. I can't have children, and realistically how sexy is cancer around your lady bits. But when you meet someone who tells you upfront they know, and it doesn't bother them, you feel like you've won the lottery. (Although I joke that I'm the winning lottery ticket considering you a. don't have to worry about me PMSing [no period] and b. No biological clock) I had no problem being single. I was happy and I knew my time would come, little did I realize it would happen when I least expected it, and now I wouldn't have it any other way.
This was over seven weeks ago and although everything has gone at rapid speed, something is special about this relationship. He has already seen me at my worst, while dealing with my ovarian cyst ordeal and the narcotic induced haze that came along with that. In fact seeing me at my worst is an understatement, he was there taking care of me, while at my worst. Things haven't been perfect and things haven't been easy, but this has made me feel .... just like there was a part of me missing, that I didn't even realize wasn't there and its no longer suddenly gone. The next few weeks will be hard, because I'll be heading to the states for check ups, but if absence makes the heart grow fonder, things will only continue on their path of just getting better.
He's wonderful and I'm happy, and I'm sure will become a main component of the blog from herein out, another thing that makes him so amazing
"It's your thing, write what you want to write."So I will try to keep our relationship to just us, but in relation to my health, it will be mentioned. Who knows, maybe I'll throw in an anecdote or two ;)